My Life

Scrap all of what ive just said... Ive just been offered an amazing job in oxfordshire with accomodation and a good wage yipeee. Things might be looking up at last!!!!!!! Touch wood anyway!

See ya later Dxx

Well hello again, ive had a shoking day! At this point i think i should let you guys into another little corner of my life in that i currently have no "home", no job, and copious amounts of debt building up around my ears! So anyway back to today.... Ive spent the magority of it posting and emailing my CV to millions of potential employers, and picking up the phone excited and getting knonked back every time by jobs saying " we are really sorry but you dont seem like the right person for this job, we will keep your CV on record for 6months and contact you if anything comes up" MY ARSE they will its a polite way of saying "your shit we dont want you workin at our establishment!"

This all happened while i was at my dads, so for a break from it all i came to mums, walking through the door to "why havent you got a job yet, your not working at co op i wont let you now that you have a degree what will people think, dont charge the local farmers for their daughters riding lessons people will think we are skint" oh dear god mother why does it matter??? Is it your life? No i think not!!!!!!!

On a plus point though ive just signed on to find 2 emails asking for my CV and two people have emailed me about house shares so fingurs crossed guys something might come of it! I think thats it for tonight, if anything happens with my mother (goose) i shall let you know later on, god she can be a mardy cow some times!!!!

Love ya guys Dx

So yesterday was about as uneventfull as ever, at least the weather was good though! I spent the morning teaching (i teach riding at a local equestrian center) all the kiddies their had fun some of them are getting really good now but one seems to be going backwards, shes great when im teaching one on one but when shes with her mates in a group lesson she seems to forget how to ride wheres all the others show off in the group lessons what the learnt on their own! Oh well i guess she will get there with time!

Im staying with my dad at the mo as hes currently slightly disables as he has a broken leg, so i took him through to ambleside to get some shopping then to the pub where we stayed with his mates untill earlly evening, the pubs in Hawkshead (where we were at this point) are quite nice but because of the amount of tourists around you tend to feel like your in a goldfish bowl because there forever staring at you or taking photos, i cant really complain though because i guess thats what im like when i go to new places!

We then went back to a mates got some food and chowed down, leaving at 9 last night, then coming back home. I curled up in the living room and finished my book (ive been reading Steven King's Carrie, its an amazing book!) an went to bed alone. So as i said it was a very unsuccessful day as i didnt do much in the way of productive activitys, i suppose it was a bit of a chill day, it was Sunday afterall (the day of rest and all that!) See you later Dx

So then lets have a look at my life so far.....

I have always lived (or refered to it as home) in Cumbria the Lake Districtand for the first kinda 16 years of my life i happily grew up in and around Ambleside, which is a lovley place but chokka with tourists all the time! I lived on a Council Estate with my mum and one of my brothers. Mum was a single parent and brought us up as well as she could but it was hard for here there, i was young and didnt realise what was going on. It was a difficult situationbecause me and my brother have different dads and it was hard in that my dad leved up the road and my bros dad lived down the road so mum was talk of the town. I loved it on the estate all my school freinds were there and i had such fun, not knowing the termoil my mum was going through.

We lived there a while then moved to Witherslack (no one will know where this is as its the back end of no where!!) Mum loved it here because no one knew her and she could start a new life for her and my brother who was only young, but at this time i was nearly 17 and hated it and my mother for making me move there! i traveled just over half an hour on the bus every morning to school where i tryed to stay the person i was befor but it was hard as i couldnt socialise afterschool with any of my friends. I latched onto a boy who i was with for 3 years, he was my escape from everything my horrible home life my horrible school life and the bits inbetween were with him! I loved him dearly and would have given the world for him but unfortunatly it was all one way as these things often are. His mum (bless her i still talk to her every weekend even now) rang one night to tell me that he had been cheating on me for a while so i cut my loss's and moved away.

I Moved to Nottingham, which i loved and miss now greatly i will move there to stay but its just getting the money to do it! anyway, i moved to Notts where i studyed at collage and got a degree. I spent 3 years doing as all students do skrimping and saving, falling in love, falling out of love, having copious amounts of sex and constantly worrying about deadlines for assignments! I loved it, and i made such good friends that will hopefully be with me forever! I miss some people so much it makes me regrett moving back to cumbria but i thought that was where the futer lay so i came home!

Im now back at home living between 3 houses as i dont have one of my own, no job because of the lack of tourists this year because of the wether no one needs staff so instead of dwelling on my worldly troubles i decided to write them all down.

And that brings us quite happily to you and why im here! I know its quite an overveiw of my life but ive left out the x-rated stuff as it involves other people i wouldnt want to name and shame any body would i???

Well Hello there and welcome to my life, it might not be interesting or fun alot of the time but its mine! I thought it might help me to write somethings down from day to day to get them of my chest and out there as i do tend to dwell on things quite allot! OOOh i will also add seen as im here that i am dyslexic so if ever anything isnt spelt write or sounds stupid, its because of that.As im a blog virgin i will leave it at that for now and will fill you in with a bit of my life story later.Dx